I always felt this way. He always had a different hype when it comes to his cousins, friends, and other people around, but when it comes to me, I only get most of his sad and angry side. I have been telling him to end this relationship bc I’m exhausted to always ask for his attention and everything.

Idk if it’s bc of him dieting, but he has been less sexually responsive these few months—which I uncontrollably relate to how I look: awful and not sexually pleasing (skinny). We’re classmates, but I still cannot tell him rants. I learned to play Valorant and other games he plays, but I still feel like someone from the outside. When we’re with his cousins or even his family, I feel left out. Idk if it’s bc I barely talk (I always respond), or they just don’t like me. One time, I was at their house. His mom invited me to eat, as he arrived from feeding his dog outside, he told me to wait for his cousin.

It took me many years to have him call me on the phone, provide me time, and even hang out with me. We had a fight just now, and I use reddit bc I don’t have friends or him to talk this with. We were playing Valorant, when in the middle of playing he suddenly started talking to his cousin who got home from uni (she’s a girl). It got to the point where idk if he’s talking to me or to her. He also had her play with me, but she only said hi, and they proceeded to talk with each other. She suddenly said she craves for something at the convenience store, which he then invited me to go, but then she decided not to. The game was pretty much them talking. I felt so awful bc these days he hasn’t been like that with me. I can’t even sleep, it’s 5:19 am here and he left me with this argument. He told me I make big deal out of small things.

And he tells me I don’t like him when I get mad for him doing these things. There’s so many other issues inside of this fucking relationship.

Why do I feel like they are having sex rn.