TIFU By getting black out drunk and putting myself in the hospital

Submitted by DrownedXoXo t3_10g5hmd in tifu

This happened 2 days ago and I still feel like shit... Ever since I first started drinking I have always had a bit of an alcohol problem. I have a really high alcohol tolerance, ADHD, and a lot of mental baggage. So when I start drinking... I dont stop. Usually this results in just being really drunk and having a good time. Not this time.

2 days ago I got back to my university accommodation after the Christmas break and went out drinking with my friends. Half a bottle of vodka, some cider and a few shots of god knows what... I dont remember anything. According to my friends there were places we went to, things I did and said that I have no memory of. The last things I remember are knocking on peoples doors, the world going upside down, my bathroom floor, ambulance people... and boom. Waking up in hospital at 4am. I could barely stand up straight as I tried to find a nurse or someone to tell me where the fuck I was. They told me that I had way too much to drink and that I should count myself lucky that I didnt have alcohol poisoning.

Apparently after going out to some other places and the party dying down, me and my closest friend at university went back to my flat. Where I passed out, wouldnt wake up and was violently shaking. Luckily that friend (who will be referred to as bob) doesnt drink and they called an ambulance.

Bob took me back to my flat, and let me know that my parents are on their way....... My parents live on the coast of north-east Scotland. I live in Glasgow..... I felt, and still feel, so bad for making them worried and driving 4-5hrs just to look after me. Bob and another friend 'mark' babysat my still very drunk but at least conciouse ass for a few hrs while my parents made their way down to Glasgow. Luckily they werent mad, just very glad that I was ok and looked after me for the following day.

I still cant really believe that during my first week back at university... I put myself in the hospital.I missed two classes and I have an assignment due tomorrow. Its been 2 days and I STILL feel like death. Wish me luck I guess :/

TL;DR I got REALLY drunk and put myself in the hospital, I dont remember anything for the most part. I also have class work due but I feel like shit... fun stuff.

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[deleted] t1_j50ofhr wrote

Alcoholics think they’re victims and have a habit of feeling bad for themselves. It’s often rooted in a kind of narcissistic thing. Your behavior has an impact on others, and can even result in the death of others. You sound like someone who should never drink ever, at all, period. Stay away from alcohol, you can not handle it.

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DrownedXoXo OP t1_j50q5o0 wrote

Thats the plan. As hard as it is to hear, its the truth. Thank you <3

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Unrealgecko t1_j51fmup wrote

Bob’s a good guy. He’ll probably go into a field where he helps people.

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kevyg973 t1_j51oprs wrote

Not to be the preachy guy but considering the mental baggage and ADHD it sounds like there's a lot of things you need to get in order before if ever you drink alcohol again. In my non professional opinion it would probably benefit you a lot to abstain from drinking and in the meantime consult a psychiatrist and or a psychologist and see if you can't work out some of the baggage and ADHD issues. I'm not saying this to put you down I'd just hate to see someone tear themselves apart when they could be building themselves up

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DrownedXoXo OP t1_j52w6ia wrote

Yeah i get you! Your kind words mean a lot to me at the moment, and currently my older sister is looking into therapy for me, im really lucky to have her. Hearing more and more people suggesting therapy is making me gradually more open to the idea. Thank you :)

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kevyg973 t1_j536kv6 wrote

May I also add that maybe you attend an AA meeting and you don't necessarily have to stand up and share anything but simply request that someone that has some time under their belt get with you after the meeting to get their take on your story, I'm not saying you NEED AA but it could probably prove to be a really beneficial experience for you even if you just go the one time to get an outside parties view, best of luck my friend :)

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blackknight8503 t1_j50si4b wrote

I turned 21 in Iraq and I wanted to make up for lost time when I got back home. I would drink foolishly and I had a lot of nights similar to the one you described. I got tired of behaving that way and gave up drinking. I haven’t drank like that in 16 years and my life and health are infinitely better for it.

If you can’t have a drink or two without turning into Frank the Tank, you need to abstain from alcohol. Binge drinking is unhealthy, especially if you are blacking out and/or getting alcohol poisoning. Your university or community should have organizations to assist you with sobering up. Good luck to you.

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SimpleArmadillo9911 t1_j50xn3i wrote

Life is Grey not black and white.

Alcohol is not about drinking the most or getting drunk it is about finding a “sweet spot” where you can Relax and have fun. Online you can find a blood alcohol table that will tell you based on your physical sex, weight, and number of drinks, where your blood alcohol level. You can even find some that show the effects after a few hours. We all make mistakes, give yourself a break, Learn from it and realize how blessed you are to have such great friends and parents! Good luck my friend!

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ironfunk67 t1_j51fzd8 wrote

r/stopdrinking has really helped me.

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Loves-The-Skooma t1_j530s37 wrote

ADHD makes you crave dopamine. Getting better at small hits more often instead of binges is a huge challenge but also the path to more control over yourself

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