Hey man, hanging in there. 47 M here and I can tell you starting therapy is a great decision. That means you are making healthy choices, helping yourself and those around you by seeking help. As an artist I have always used art as my therapy but as an adult in therapy I see how it unlocks my creativity by helping me to process and not feel frustrated or blocked. Trying drawing to music. It can be very relaxing and a positive way to release pent up emotions.