We struggle to see our own lives accurately; maybe trying to journal and writing down one thing you liked about the day, one way you helped someone/yourself/the planet, and finally reflecting on a plan for the next day might give you a sense of purpose. A lot of people find that having goals helps them direct their energy, set small goals, and feel like they’re accomplishing something.

I also find that when I’m struggling to find my own joy, I’m usually still able to contribute to or partake in the joy of others. Doing something kind or thoughtful and seeing a reaction makes me happy; letting someone know you’re thinking about them and they’re important to you.

I don’t want to comment on your treatment at all, but I will add that at particularly difficult points in my life therapy and a support system have not been enough and I’ve needed medication. Everyone is different and you don’t need to share any more info about yourself, I just talk about it because we need to end the stigma around medication.