>I’m overwhelmed with the feeling to not spend any time leisurely. I feel guilty if I don’t spend most of my time building towards what I want.

But what you want is the ability to spend time leisurely. It's why we do everything. If you're already there, even for a bit, not taking the opportunity goes against your own ideal!

There's a balance... It's the child with a marshmallow experiment. Will the child eat the marshmallow now, or wait and get two marshmallows later? Eventually you have to eat some amount of marshmallows, or the experiment ends.

Taken to it's extreme, you can work all your life and retire with millions of dollars, and find that you squandered your youth and now have an old and broken body that can't enjoy the money.

Even if you had a billion dollars, you'd always be working toward something. Even if it was just spending time managing your employees, finances or charities. So there's always work. You have to blend the leisure, your actual goal, into the work time, the time that's spent getting to be able to enjoy leisure.

We all have a limited time here. Don't overspend it on the work side of the equation.