You smoked smn before you wrote that header huh lmao regardless you’re right, it’s exactly how i am and ive been stuck in that feeling for years, and i try to unravel it and make it make sense all day every day while i run around doing random menial shit, and when i say that i literally mean it ill spend entire days going to different parts of my room, sitting, panicking and over exaggerating and spiraling and generally digging my preverbial hole or as i call it “thinking” and absolutely nothing else. Instead of thinking i need to do this that and the other thing bit i gotta get a good start tomorrow and then staying up til 5 in the morning high as shit eating anything my eyeballs can sense, i could get up at 1 tomorrow instead of 4-5, go work out, cook some good food, not eat all of it, and get some work done. And i wanna tell myself thats what ill do too.