That won't make anyone happier. It never does. The fact that someone who has dabbled in the far right now sees it as misguided makes me happier. Your life can have a positive meaning if you want it to, that meaning is your choice to make.

You are a waste of oxygen?? Man you haven't seen people who really are a waste of oxygen. Man atleast you had a purpose for 10 years. And only because you had enough guts to go through that path you are here. What if you choose another path, a path you didn't actually like. You will be far more disappointed. Nothing is easy and sometimes we don't get what we wish. So what? No one will be there for you and for the people who love or depend on you, only you. And if you look enough there are people who has worse situation than yours. Do they think they are a waste of oxygen? No. They seek and try to find the next step. And make it work. Your job your passions is not only the things that defines you. And did you really waste 10 years? You choose it and you like it. And no one can really predict what happens after 10 years before it happens.

Never a good idea to be on either end of politics, the extremes are fucked, eitherway not a reason to suicide and no one will be happier, the ones you know will be hurt and the rest it probably won't mean anything to them anyway, stop sabotaging yourself