This entire thread is my shower thoughts manifested. Except everyone gets it.

What even is happening. I do feel really silly now my thoughts are finally so easily "confirmed". I lived like a robot , thinking others will guard me, untill they didnt and i face planted so hard I barely seem to recover.

In a way for someone that has always believed others do it better, and becoming very dependent, its terrifying knowing that actually alot of things i could do better if i just took initiative. Running behind someone where you know exactly how fast to run or what way to go, is comforting compared to running up front where you cant see anyone else, alone.

Im that guy that becomes passive, affraid of making mistakes to a fault, only to then see someone else fail so hard it annoys me and I have to correct them. Why couldnt i do that. Damn life is tiny if you know that you are trapped in a glass box and you cant seem to find a hammer.

It helps knowing this, but my convictions are rusted, its still hard to change now. Ive proven to myself that indeed nobody knows anything. Better late then never i guess.

Sorry for ranting. This post was positively received i swear!