Idk if this is true socially. I mean, to an extent. I'm tempted to make something about how your personality has to center around jokes and fun in order to have any kind of relationship-building to occur outside of necessity. Because people don't tell you that.

People don't tell you that they don't want to be around you because you're too up tight, or they feel weird about being around you because of pent-up emotions to the point that you choose to have emotions because you're so guarded.

I understand that it's hard to be scared of people, it's hard to be scared of ruining a reputation, but it's important to also be yourself in that respect, to give yourself respect.

Respect yourself, change for the better.