Man, cancer is the absolute worst. In the past I was overly critical and self-concious about myself all the time. Even worse I felt that because the world was being harsh on me that I felt entitled to relationships and wealth, while being jealous of others on facebook.

You can imagine how well trying to date with depression went, never again. I thought a girlfriend would be an instant fix for my issues.

Mental issues are extremely hard to tackle on, it's doable but annoying to try and find the source. The biggest source for my issues was the constant insecurity in finances, but not the only one, otherwise I would have started this path the moment my financial situation became okay.

My advice for you is to set a goal you cannot absolutely fail and see if you can slowly work yourself up from there. Even 10 minutes of walking outside would be a huge victory.

As for the colon thing, yeah whose bright idea was it to name a symbol after part of the digestive tract?

And lastly, this is the one thing I've discovered about myself:

I am the master of my body and the mind, they respond to my will and my command!