Please go get tested for learning disabilities and get a mental health evaluation bc it sounds like you could have ADHD &/or maybe something else going on. These issues are not your fault, but they are yours to deal with. You need to learn coping skills to get focused on your life goals. You want a career? You will have to be willing to get up and do some things you don't want to in order to reach that goal. So put up some reminders (pix or text) of what you want to do. It's only a relatively short commitment of a few years to learn some skills and get earning decent money. I send you my best wishes for a better future.