So, not sure what kind of hate I may get for recommending this…but a mushroom trip done with a therapist friend of mine just changed my life. This happened around New Years. Spent a decade isolating, depressed and anxious. Grinding gears at a dead end job. All that negative bullshit has been unraveling since that New Years trip. I had done counseling for years with a few therapists and little success. If not this, maybe just explore antidepressants. They can certainly get you out of a funk if you find one that works well for you.