I relate to this so much. I felt like all the music I was listening to for so long was extremely shallow or just dark and depressing. And I don’t need help being depressed. 😂 but anyway that got me into making music because I wanted something that sounded sort of dark so it will meet you where you are at when you are in a bad place but then lift you out of that place with a happy or hopeful meaning to the lyrics. This song may sound too dark for you but I wrote it about a time in my life when I got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and I was having panic attacks almost every day. The song is about fighting internally with the person that I was and the person that I wanted to be. And eventually the person that I wanted to be won! Now I don’t have panic attacks and I don’t take any medication for it. So long story short I think you might like it because the song is about change and becoming the new person that you want to be. If you want to check it out it is “The Killer by Blue Like Fire” if you do give it a listen I would love to know what you think of it :)