I was in detox one time when I was younger for a bad Xanax addiction. My room mate for those 3 days was an alcoholic who had planned to kill himself . He planned to , he layed a tarp down on the patio of his parents house so they wouldn’t have to clean the mess . He had a gun (I forget what type but it was a shotgun) and put it in his mouth and pulled the trigger. It jammed .

I slept next to him thinking about that every night . It made my problems seem smaller than some else’s and began my journey with meditation .

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