I was in the same boat. Spent 5 years with this chick and even asked for her hand in marriage. When I got out of hs I was gonna go to the navy to do nuclear engineering. I did not and stayed in Texas with her. Then she cheated on me. Then the one after that was way worse emotionally speaking but hey. I'm still standing and getting my shit back on track. I'm young as hell in my early 20's so I got plenty of time at least. Part of me wants to be like you and say fuck it stay single and enjoy myself. The other part wants someone else to share my life with. Hard times nowadays between wanting to be alone or with someone. I guess it's more so not wanting to risk having the same shit happen again like the past 2.

I will say we differ in the aspect of remaining friends. I don't keep my exes as friends. Never has worked out for the best for me. Then again I could just have extremely terrible taste in women. You've indirectly given me some shit to think about. Appreciate it Nero