Why am I being left alone again? Even after I die, everyone leaves me. I'm supposed to leave this place by drinking just one of these bowls, yet I drank 238 and I'm still hear and able to remember the past.

He sank onto his knees, supporting himself with his arms on the ground, dropping just a couple tears. Not many, but each one weighting a million tons. Darkness surrounds him. It just him, the darkness the bottomless pot of soup and his bowl. He wipes the tears out of his eyes, lays himself onto his back and just falls into a deep deep sleep.

It's a strange type of sleep. It feels dreamy but yet he still is conscious. He doesn't dream, he doesnt see anything. It's just him laying in the darkness, sleeping and dreaming of even more darkness and he begins to cry again.

"Is that some sort of torture? Am I doomed to eternal darkness and hopelessness? Have I been a sinner?", the man asks himself. He doesn't understand what's the meaning of all of this. Just like he didn't do in his lifetime.

A blue dot appears in the far. "What is this?", the man thought to himself. He gets up and starts moving towards it. He walks for a while but it doesnt seem to come closer. So he fastens up. He starts running, running as fast as he could, running faster as he could and finally fall. But even as he falls he doesn't hesitate for a second and keeps moving. Keeps crawling, his body aching. He collapses onto the ground.

He laughs. "I've never been good at reaching goals". He laughs and falls asleep. But just as he falls asleep in that dream, he wakes up.

"So that was all just a dream? Am I already crazy", he laughs again. Then he squeezes his eyes. No, he can clearly still see that blue light! And this time its coming towards him. As it's getting closer he sees that it is something carrying a candle with a blue flame. The man is not quite sure if that something is a human or if it is something else. Its face is covered by a cowl. Its wearing a robe. His heart beat rises, but for whatever reason he just wants to stay where he is until that thing comes nearer. It stops right before him. It puts the candle right before him and sits down. It moves its handlike claws over the fire and suddenly the flame starts growing. Something starts burning in the mans chest. It feels like his heart is on fire. A voice appears in his head

This is going to be very painful. The threads of your heart and the ones of your soul have intertwined themselves into a fuzzy big mess. You are confused. You are questioning the meaning of all of this. When you died, you still haven't found purpose. Now you can not let go, because you are still searching for something. Something that is missing. And that void has nagged on your soul for quite a while now. I will show you what it is and you will be able to let go and reincarnate. Afterall that is what a ferryman is for. Fear not, even though it is painful it will help you find peace. We will walk through your life again and again and what we are looking for is a particular flower. Once you've found it, you will understand and you will be able to let go.

And one last tip: the flower isn't as spectacular as you would think...