Iz like music, first you search fun, amusement, then feelings of all sorts, then you also have the patience to appreciate something by learning to love the particularity of it, even tough it's less accessible. And like music, you will find urself in a mood for good pop music, strong rap lyrics or smooth rnb, or in a I want to listen to 20 minutes tracks of american minimalists ahaha.

Daniel Pennac a French writer wrote on all of this pressure to read (we are the champs of that in France, country with the larger number of bookshop, but we still gatekeep reading lol), and in the end Pennac wrote just read, be with the worlds no matter how skip pages, chapters, wander away in your reading, never finish a book, no one cares, start with the end, whatever just read if you can. It's the best advice