It is a crazy experience.

I had a major surgery back in July 2021. It was a 5 hours surgery to install MANY screws and 2 rods at my neck, so it requires drilling. My spine won't stop bleeding everytime they drill in (apparently that's uncommon), so they have to keep stopping and let the cell saver machine to clean my blood and put it back into me. 5 hours surgery turned into 10 hours.

Because of that, they have to keep putting anesthesia into me and it is not good to have that much anesthesia in me. I couldn't wake up afterward.

They tried to wake me up every hour after the surgery. I can hear them and I can feel the nurse smacking my face. I tried to open my eyes and I just couldn't. 5 or 6 hours later, I finally woke up because of a phone call.

Afterward, I was told I lost 3L of blood during the surgery. They were about to tell my parents to prepare I might not wake up.

Now everytime I think of it, I still can't believe it. Especially I was asking 1 of my surgeons about the possibility of that right before they roll me to the OR. I could've just slept and never wake up right there.