Back in my last marriage we went to a pentecostal church. I know all about that. We had gotten rid of everything all movies absolutely everything that wasn't "clean" instead of Netflix we watched pureflix. My ex hubs is a narcissist and I met quite a few narcissistic husband's in that church. I no longer practice religion either. Just more spiritual.. I believe it was actually God that talked to you. He chooses to talk to certain people for certain reasons.. I guess he talked to a friend of mine and she heard God audibly. I never have. I'm sorry for what you went through losing your mom and her unborn kiddo. I hope everything goes in your favor! Hugs!