To be frank, most wording and advice I see on this sub is terrible or disconnected from human interaction. There are great broad takeaways, but sometimes this sub needs to be treated with a grain of salt. You said this was a job you really wanted and in that case, you should've been more lenient especially if you thought there would be a bigger income involved. The type of advice here is typically for a specific type of person and not a broad blanket of most people. If I took this subreddit's advice, I wouldn't have my current job which I really enjoy. Lowkey, this subreddit sometimes feels like WSB without the comedy. It reads like 20 something financier or tech bros simply trying to get the next big check and are playing at professionalism when in reality, there are certain employers who'd flatout reject you by parroting some word choices here. Your poverty background is a survival background and it would've done you favors this time rather than the hardballers some of these folks larp being.