I'm not allowed to be here overnight more than a few times a month, owners rules. Besides, it just puts off a problem - I need to stay in the shelter to qualify for housing support, which I absolutely will need. This isn't a "I just need to get back on my feet" kind of situation. It will take me years of intensive therapy before I could hold any kind of real income unless I get very lucky and manage to write a book or three that sell ok. Which is hard when you're super mentally ill. And the truth of it is, I am a pretty severe case. I've had to come to terms with the fact that I may never get better. The frontline modality didn't work, and others I'm trying now are having limited success managing symptoms a little, but my outlook is pretty bleak.