Submitted by Nemesis3347 t3_z9473u in relationship_advice
This woman approaches me in my workplace and catches my name from my identification tag and later on messages me on Instagram.
We talk briefly, trade numbers, set up a meeting, I pick her up and we go to a coffee shop- and Jesus she talks and talks. She was very anxious, told me quite about her family, her past, and so on.
One important detail is that she talks how she recently got out of a relationship, about 3-4 months ago.
We meet up again- this goes on for a week and makes up a total of about 4 times. She seems partially distant during our meetings- and in the sense of, phone calls with her family, texting, she clearly has stuff going around, but inbetween that I tell her parts about myself, she highlights how she loves the way I think and my maturity- and the same goes for her on my behalf. We end up kissing several times. She drops me messages on WhatsApp after every encounter, saying how she loved it.
She was around in her sister's house in vacation, but she eventually has to go to her land, which is like 250KM from me. Before she goes, we make it clear to each other: we don't want to engage in a relationship and it might turn into nothing but friendship, because the plot is that we continue discovering each other, growing our bond and see if this is worth it.
Before she left, we even traded trinkets. She gave me a pendant, a bracelet- and even a written note saying how our time together was amazing, how there was no absolute pressure, how she'd like to get to know me, etc.
She told me her schedules, her to-dos, and so on- and her plans, how she'd do it while in her land. She had a lot of unexpected stuff, true, but it's safe to say that she abided by not a single one of the things she stated, as she improvised in the end how to execute her tasks. This paragraph is pretty much to show her state of mental chaos and confusion.
We keep talking every single day, even make calls to talk about most trivial things such as how was her day, etc.
One particular note is that she doesn't seem very interested in getting to know more about me, as she asks little in my regard. An example of this is how I asked her what's her favorite weather type and she tells me, but doesn't return the question.
Overtime she starts venting on how her abusive ex keeps messaging her. I also find out how broken she is from her last relationship (with that guy), and it starts to show during our text exchanges. At one point I attempted to create some distance as to give her space- but she kind of flipped over it and wanted me close to her. Her texts most of the time seemed bland/low effort, hence I did it since she might've felt overwhelmed, but she wanted the proximity. I stood by her side, thereafter, not keeping my expectations high because I knew very well there was a risk of this happening. I recall during one of our calls she "slyly" lets out how she has "found a peace of heaven in earth" and how "she can't like guys with blue eyes", both references to me.
A week ago, she called me and told me she is thinking about going back to her ex. But that she's sure he won't take her back. She tells me that she now understands that she loves him and can't forget him. She mentions how she'll take about an year to recover from everything. She explains how she even stopped talking now/got mad with two of her best friends (they were super close) because her mental state is in the crap. She mentions how she doesn't want to illusion me, nor hurt me (because there's a subtle hint of her saying we won't be talking). I ask her why, the meaning of this, if she means that she doesn't want to talk anymore and she's just like: "I don't know. I don't know anything."
She tells me that she bought a ticket plane and she is leaving soon, in the upcoming 8th of December (her birthday). She says she didn't want to just vanish, to hurt me and that I am the only one that knows about this. Not even her family does.
The call ends with her in tears and we change a few texts. I tell her that if going after her ex is what makes her feel better, then do so, because as her friend I can only wish the best for her. I also described how I feel something for her, something that I don't exactly know what it means. I finish with saying that I just wanted to get to know her but in her current state its hard. That despite all of this, I just wanted to let her know that she has my contacts (if she needs anything). That I won't pressure her into anything, to do as she feels best. She replies simply put: "I appreciate your understanding".
So, I gave her space, but she reminded me later on that we'd still be friends and there for each other no matter what, as we had initially stated.
I don't keep high expectations, but I feel something for her. And honestly, at this point, this is more about trying to figure her out. To see if she even cares about me, but I can try to drop a bait and test that out with a shady social media story to see if she asks what's up. (Should I?)
She's been doing some changes, even cut her hair shorter, etc. It's clear she's trying to "morph", like when women try to take a step into a different direction with their lives and move on with heartbreak.
One note that I may be overreacting and overthinking about during one of these last calls is that she mentioned how she even installed Tinder, but quickly explained she was just messing around with dudes. Like: "So you're Cristiano? Where's the Ronaldo?" Like, was this to try to get a reaction out of me? Because even if she isn't lying- it wouldn't make sense for me to give her a reaction when I said I'd give her space and respect her need to pick herself back up after she was broken.
I just don't understand her attitude. I don't understand what does she want. I'm giving her space and two in two days she calls me (random hour), pretty much tells me how was her day and what she did, just asks how am I doing, a few extra details with specific conversations she's had with her best friends, and then what she's about to do next. She usually ends up the call with "we'll talk over message", except we do so but her replies are very bland, like I asked her "so what was the call about?" and she answers "nothing".
Can any of you make anything out of this?
Admirable-Gur-7043 t1_iyew3g2 wrote
I am sorry but tldr