I don't think I was cause of her irritation. I do think she had issues in her private life which makes me feel really bad because I gave her presenta at the end and I wanted to thank her for her awesome work and what she did for me (she did basically do everything I wanted for me) and show my appreciation without becoming romantically, instead I got really nervous and had self-doubts that this was too much and proceeded to make those presents about me instead of her because in both rooms were people listening so I couldn't say what I wanted to say as it was still a level of very deep emotions but I didn't want anyone getting the wrong idea and jeopardising her job. She turned from being fondly to a harsh goodbye and I am so sad I didn't get to tell her what a great person she is and how much I appreciate her work since I think she didn't get enough praise for that - also at work from the staff side and patientd and she had to deal with a lot of complaints from other patients which she couldn't do anything about.

2 days before Christmas (earlier before my release) I had to complain about something because the male leading doctor above her had done really bad things and I had to complain about it. It almost made her cry even though she was trying to suppress it. I went back to her and gave her a Christmas present (chocolate) and told her she was very smart and I didn't doubt her.

I am just totally upset and sad about not telling her how awesome she is and make her feel better about herself.