one can't equate a limited experience that is probably less than a 100 years to the billions of years that are going to pass. Your scope is entirely a self-centric one that really can't be explained beyond that self aggrandizement.

what difference are you expecting to make on the universe? you can't get to orbit let alone be outside of the orbit of this planet and even if then, you may make it to the moon. Your supposed are of affect is 300k miles in this area of space that is constantly changing. You think a 100kg mass is going to change the constitution of a star?