Dude, the thoughts racing in your head about your past mistakes, keeping you up at night- I know that Reddit says "therapy" for pretty much everything, but that's because a lot of Redditors have social anxiety. Are you ok bud? Do you have someone you're working on for this?

In terms of mistakes, what helps me sometimes, is 1) acknowledging that boy I royally fucked up in the past, and 2) the past is what makes me a better person today. It's a learning experience to use as a stepping stone to become who I want to be, who I'm trying to be, with a lot of help and support from those around me who love me. There's a degree of self-love in there; I recognize that I'm valuable and that my past mistakes, while super cringe, are not changeable, but my present and future are. There's a degree of reflection there too; who did you really hurt in that scenario? So you gave your interviewers a laugh. Did any of them get hurt by it? No. Even if you hurt someone, you can't fix the fact that you hurt them, but you can make amends, and make sure not to do it again in the future.