Sometimes we are our own worst enemies.

From what I can understand, you still have some soul searching and self discovery to take on before you jump into a relationship. And for some friendly advice - don’t start off meeting people by telling them all your flaws. It’s a buzzkill, and basically sets up any friendship/relationship for failure. Let people figure you out on their own, and vice versa.

Also, break this up into some paragraphs, easy to lose track of the story.