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ThrowRA4Reuse t1_jd1q6cu wrote

Reply to comment by tabshiftescape in TIFU reading my girlfriends texts after a bout of insecurity by [deleted]

It’s probably self-preservation speaking at this point. I have no will of my own to continue

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tabshiftescape t1_jd1qg76 wrote

Gotcha. Well you have no active will right now. There sheer act of self preservation and of acknowledging it is in itself at least a passive will to go forward. So you have will and have no will.

I think both are true. Something in your mind is dragging you forward while the rest of you collapses. I think that’s okay and part of the process.

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[deleted] OP t1_jd1r3ok wrote

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tabshiftescape t1_jd1rddh wrote

If you’re giving up and have nothing left to lose, then why not just take the rest of your day and have a cry and a nap? You’re emotionally exhausted, not defeated.

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ThrowRA4Reuse t1_jd1rhhq wrote

No, I’m defeated. My life has been one massive case of try and fail, push and pull, expectations and disappointment. I’ve never meant anything to anyone, and I’m beginning to no longer mean anything to me. I can’t do anything right. Nothing. Nada.

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