She's already gone and probably already cheated... physically. You may be able to recover from this with therapy and a lot of work and love, but you may not want to.

Right NOW you do want to fix things. Probably more than anything else in the world. It's probably really hard to let yourself see how unhappy you've been as well.

Probably the best thing my ex wife could have done for me was the thing that hurt me most in my life. She refused to try and repair our relationship after cheating while I begged for resolution. We divorced after 2 years of torment, and I made some incredible life changes that I could have never made with her. In hindsight, she was fiercely holding me back