I’m glad to hear that. I’ve known several friends that had hurt themself often and almost accidentally killed theirselves several times. Hopefully you can find someone that can help you get through this rough patch in your life.

Also, I’m sorry about your friend. I’ve had the same thing happen to me and it’s so hard to recover from, socially and mentally. I’m still working through mental issues from it and it’s almost been ten years. I wish I had better tips to help you, but my coping mechanisms have pretty much all been unhealthy