I responded somewhere else in here, but just wanna speak more generally here. I feel you.

Knew a girl in 8th grade, felt really natural when we were around each other. That year we had a class trip where she fell asleep on my shoulder on the bus ride home.

As soon as we got home my parents hit me with the news we were moving. I never worked up the nerve to tell her how I felt.

Life goes on. It hurt then, and I still get a flutter when I think back and wonder what if. But I've met a ton of great people since then, and have been married almost 10 years. I wouldn't be the person I am without having gone through the stuff I have.

You had a great time with this girl right? Cherish it. That's gonna be a great memory years from now.

Feeling pain and sadness is a part of life, too. Even if it hurts, that means you know you had a great experience. For me, I take comfort that I cared enough to feel sad. Knowing I can still feel sad instead of just detached or empty is kind of comforting in its own way.