To be fair that's not exactly a welcoming family bf included I've never been a Christmas person either (no idea why it just never fit me) but if we can't get together I'll still visit my parents and have dinner together or show up for regular Christmas but to me it's just family time which gets tougher when it's not a family you know I hope the next one goes better whether you become a Christmas person or just go through the motions I hope it isn't a ball of stress you're forced to go through