@OP, Thank you for sharing, this is obviously a tough moment for you and your feelings of guilt are understandable but completely misplaced!!

As a caring parent we always want the best for our children and when things go sideways we always blame ourselves!! I'm the adult, I should know better is the same argument we throw at ourselves every time.

Well, the truth is that this situation came about because you tried to do the best for your children, you took the abuse so your children could have a home! Well that worked. Being a good parent isn't always about the success but trying! It's important that our children see us try even unsuccessfully and push through!!

I really believe that was a no win situation you were in! I firmly believe your daughter will ultimately understand that you tried, and I think she'll appreciate the sacrifices you made for her and her siblings.

Try not to beat yourself up, I wish you well, 🤗💜