Happy birthday, honey! Your family is toxic to you and they are unbelievably biased. It is SO totally not your fault. And you are right in expecting them to love you. But maybe it's time to also realize they won't live up to what they should be. Chin up, try not to let what they say get to you. Take all the professional help you need, and try to make friends who support you. You don't need many, even one can make a world of difference. When you doubt life, remember, you braved all these years because there's still fight left in you. Keep going. There are so many good things that you have to yet do and see. Happy birthday again, and hugs!