Just putting it out there, I cried a lot during my birthdays. My parent would consistently find ways to make me unhappy. I also had a huge issue with body positivity because I was overweight and my parent would also regularly limit how much I was allowed to eat and freak out when I had sugar saying I would get diabetes. I didn't start feeling good about who I was as a person until I moved out, stopped weighing myself, and decided that parents advice was unwelcome. You are beautiful and a few extra pounds doesn't change that. I read in an earlier comment that you weren't going to speak with your counselor about it, while I won't tell you to talk to them specifically I highly suggest getting all this off your chest to SOMEONE.