As it’s been said before, fuck around and find out. You sound needy as fuck and like you need coddled and the moment your boss wasn’t there for you you fucked them over in spite, not even realizing your boss actually had your back. But now you know this isn’t game of thrones, you aren’t a main character and all you are is a problem worker to literally every higher up there now. You’ll definitely get fired but hopefully you learned your lesson and can find a job before they can you. When you are making good money and have a boss that has your back, fucking ride that wave until it crashes.