I am not that Sophisticated. This was one of the big moments where I knew I was good enough to find the value but I sucked at execution. I alllowed this pain to sink in deep. I continually reminded myself how I could have used that money or if I had it I could xyz, I used it as fuel. It took another 3-4 months before I could find or identify when I should contemplate exiting a trade, and to justify it with reason or logic or whatever. I still could not exit at the best time or anywhere close to it. I still lost but was no longer bleeding.

At this time I was deep in therapy for an injury that fucked me up. I went through CBT and it dramatically changed my life. I started taking care of myself and a year later things started changing and I started making better choices and was growing my ability to exercise discipline. Since then things have been better. Sure I may still suck but I’m making better decisions, using less money to make more consistently and love trying to find the value.