Quacking wise, eh?

I have a hard time regulating strong emotions myself, and literally the only thing that has ever worked is just developing that habit of recognizing when its happening and excusing myself until I can be calm.

Some days, I go for a lot of walks. Physical action has a particularly soothing value to it, and helps get me out of my head.

That owl could totally win, just needs the element of surprise.

I feel like people are going to get mad, but that isn't a kid's show. It's more like a teenager and adult show. It's anime voiced by adult actors. Even if we go by the fictional age of the fictional characters they are canonically teenagers, and of fictional legal age in many countries even though the show doesn't depict them in any kind inherently sexual situations.

I mean its a little odd, but I don't think its pedophilia. Your title makes it sound like he was jerking off to Icarly or Sesame Street. You are free to think its weird, free to leave even of course, but I just don't see the victim here.

(Lets just save some time before someone comments, no I don't do this so I am not justifying anything.)

There is a lot to unpack here.

You sound very interested in your coworker, that feels like a walking fantasy you live out a little. You also sound dissatisfied with your boyfriend like you want him to be jealous and give you more attention. Both of these are fine as thoughts and feelings, but ultimately won't give you what you want.

It's pretty simple: accept your gf for who she is, or leave because you would rather be with someone else. Both of these are valid life choices, its only if you try to do both that it becomes wrong. Leaving would be kind of shallow, and you might regret it, but relationships are voluntary.

I would examine the contradiction between "I love her" and "I really wanna fuck this other girl." One of those is false. (I am not talking about poly people, they exist -- but they enter relationships with that expectation not peek over the fence for the ass on the other side.)