You're right. This was absolutely a terrible, hideous mistake on my part and I take full responsibility for that. I mistakenly thought that ending my affair and caring for my wife through her sickness was making amends, but you're right, that is not the same as begging forgiveness. I'm going to try to beg forgiveness through the door between us, my fear is if I open the door, it will absolutely kill me before I have a chance to even open my mouth.

I’ve been trying to call 911 for the last three hours. All that happens is that THING picks up and laughs. I don’t know what to do.

Thank you, your suggestion looks like my only option at this point. My only fear is leading this thing to more people.

I’ve sent her a text which is safer because I don’t know what it is, speaking out loud could make me a doorway to it without my even knowing. No response yet.

Thank you. I’ll post an update when I can.

I hope she does. Though I don’t know of anyone in our family facing something like this.

I’m sitting here on the freeway trying to breathe and think of what to do. Im trying to be very quiet but I’m sure…quite sure I can hear it breathing next to me.