Me when people ask me why I didn't start losing weight 10 years ago. It's a mystery to me and I don't know why I didn't try to improve my health back then but I have done it now and I guess that will have to suffice. I can't turn back the clock.

I look up at the night sky and see nothing (I live in a big city with lots of light pollution)

It's Thursday

Tell me how

I like my comfort zone very much but I know it harms me more than it helps me.

Don't think you can call it growth if you start regressing

There are online classes for it if you so wish. You can do workouts from the comfort of your home. The trainers help you via video call.

If nothing else helps, then just count calories and walk every day. Just walk for an hour straight, doesn't matter how fast or how slow. At your current weight you'll just lose a lot of it by walking and watching what you eat.

It's hard at first trust me. I really know what you're saying because only about a year ago I was 330lbs when I first joined the gym. Seeing myself in the mirror every time was very disheartening and the gym owner even told me later that some people at the gym would tell him that I won't last long (though I did and dropped to 172lbs, but I digress). But it gets better. Eventually you start liking the weightlifting, the walking, the jumping jacks and what not. Then you start making small goals, you start taking more pictures because you start liking the way your body is changing. You gain strength, you can run up the stairs. In the end, when everyone praises you for it, it's a very great feeling, although I'd say the true happiness comes from not hating the person in the mirror and I got to that point quite late. I don't shy away from pictures anymore, I'm more confident around my friends, I feel better when shopping for clothes because I know I won't have to go to another store if this one doesn't have the size I need. It's the little things in life, you know. After having lived at least 99% of my life being obese, this is a whole new experience. It's like I'm reborn and even though the challenges remain, I feel confident that I can do something about them.

I'll still encourage you to go to the gym. You'll be doing it for yourself and no one else. It doesn't matter what everyone else looks like. Everyone at the gym is struggling in some way. Skinny guys want to bulk but keep failing, girls struggle with strength training, old people can't walk as much. Take it one day at a time. Small consistent efforts make a huge change in the end.

I go to the gym. It helps a great deal with boosting confidence even if it lasts for 3-4 hours at most.

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