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Look up borderline personality disorder. This behavior seems to match it almost perfectly. You're only 14, there will be other girls and other situations like this in the future and if you don't get a good grip on your emotions early, itll lead to a life of repeat situations where it seems like you always fuck things up because you're afraid of being alone. It sucks because it'll feel like you're alone, strictly because you're afraid of being alone.