Of course. But OP waiting to tell him and then telling him as they were going someplace Ryan would be doesn’t help those feelings.

You’ve done nothing wrong besides waiting to tell him and telling him in a place where he could react irrationally. If you told him after that first realization and in private, he could have processed it by now. You and Ryan keeping it secret makes it seem like that was more meaningful than a one night stand.

But the fact you slept with someone before your boyfriend isn’t a FU, it’s totally normal. If that’s his hang up here he needs to grow up.

Is that from a railroad spike? The blade looks great but I’d be a bit worried about my hand slipping forward

I’m not very art savvy, but I’d hang this on my wall and stare at it… Nice Job!