Sounds like someone’s frustrated the usual indoctrination isn’t working on OP

“It’s all fake.” You sound like me when I was a kid growing up in catholic school. Once those realizations come they won’t really go away, because it is all fake. You’ll start to see more and more evidence of how it’s all fake. It’s all a fairy tale. I’m now in my 30s with a great family and living a successful, moral and ethical life as an atheist. Yeah, you don’t need to believe in any god to believe morality. Treating people with kindness and respect, not stealing, and not killing people. But what happens after you die? Same thing that happens to every dog, squirrel, fish, bird, etc. There is no god, heaven, hell, afterlife. It’s all made up.

Care to share some?