Haha believe it or not I was socialized the same, despite being a woman. My mom believed crying was a manipulation tactic girls use, so she'd start raging if you did it in front of her. Probably not a super common experience among women, but it really makes me feel for guys like yourself. Glad you've been able to find your tears! They're so important.

Exactly. Like dude, it took me three years of intensive therapy to stop emotionally blunting and teach myself to cry again. The catharsis of being able to let it all out when things get rough is an invaluable coping mechanism. Feeling emotions is a goddamn gift.