In June, I realized I was trans. Crazy to think but ever since then, my mind has been telling me all kinds of negative things about how this will go. As you might have guessed, my entire life I have been filled with self-doubt, low self-esteem, no self-confidence. This has led to me continuously questioning whether or not I really am making the right decision despite what I know and everyone in my life has told me repeatedly in the last six months.
Today, is another big step in my transition as I go to the doctor for HRT. I didn’t sleep at all last night, and I’ve been a nervous wreck. At one point I even considered just ghosting my doctor and paying whatever cancellation fee. It’s silly really. I know what I need but my mind is using 38 years of professional self-gaslighting to make me stay in this miserable existence simply because it is comfortable and it is a known thing.
This image… I cannot tell you how much these words mean. In the last six months, all of these doubts and negative thoughts have been wrong. I know this negative thought about HRT being wrong for me is also wrong.
scotty3281 t1_irvmcnb wrote
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I don’t really have any words right now.
In June, I realized I was trans. Crazy to think but ever since then, my mind has been telling me all kinds of negative things about how this will go. As you might have guessed, my entire life I have been filled with self-doubt, low self-esteem, no self-confidence. This has led to me continuously questioning whether or not I really am making the right decision despite what I know and everyone in my life has told me repeatedly in the last six months.
Today, is another big step in my transition as I go to the doctor for HRT. I didn’t sleep at all last night, and I’ve been a nervous wreck. At one point I even considered just ghosting my doctor and paying whatever cancellation fee. It’s silly really. I know what I need but my mind is using 38 years of professional self-gaslighting to make me stay in this miserable existence simply because it is comfortable and it is a known thing.
This image… I cannot tell you how much these words mean. In the last six months, all of these doubts and negative thoughts have been wrong. I know this negative thought about HRT being wrong for me is also wrong.
Thank you very much.