I was like that for the past 10 years, just in auto pilot. I was 36, no school, no kids and I had an ok job. I dated people here and there but single for the last decade. I was just numb to life, pretending I was enjoying it. What helped me the most was change. Change doesn't happen without trying and what I mean with change is work on yourself, better yourself! Right now, in less than 2 years I was able to switch my life. I have a girlfriend that I love more than anything, a job that pays good and I like, the best friends I can ask for and all of them make me feel great about myself. What helped me the most was finding a good group of friends, working out and psychedelics(lucy and shroomies). Psychedelics helped me get a different perspective in my life and understand that you are the solution in your life, not a victim, also helped me take responsibility on my own life and understand that everyone is winging it, everyone is also trying to figure out life! You are allowed to be YOU and fight for yourself. Working out gave me the discipline I needed in life. Also, people treat you better and respect you more. Men respect you more and women like you more, lol. Friends made me feel that I'm ok, I'm not weird or an outsider and gave me that security that working out did as well. You do better when you surround yourself with good people. Just make sure you have positive friends, people who are also working on themselves and trying to be better. And stay positive!