Submitted by MeoMix t3_10r1nsr in GetMotivated
Hey all!
I'm developing a simulation game (think SimCity, Sims, RimWorld) where the concept being simulated is a slice of human psychology. In some ways this is a nebulous topic because each human experience is unique, but in other ways it's blindingly obvious as we all struggle with similar limitations. I want to hear your story on how you know if you're resting and pushing yourself the correct amount. How does that feel? What does that look like?
As a tangible example, let's talk about how I am doing today in this moment. I had some trouble sleeping last night and am running on a little over 4 hours of sleep. I have goals I want to achieve today. Some of those goals I consider more mandatory than others - I expect myself to continue to eat healthy, but maybe my taxes can wait until a day I feel more well rested.
Should I push to achieve my goals? Should I instead acknowledge the lack of sleep and rest? Is it reasonable to make a decision here while only considering today, or should the past weeks effort be considered? In essence, how do I know if pushing myself to encourage growth of self-determination is appropriate for any given event? Conversely, how do I know if allowing myself to rest is allowing for healthy recuperation and not just a convincing argument for following the path of least resistance?
For any one, specific scenario I have enough willpower to "force" myself. Some people might say that it's never good to "force" output as it builds long-term resentment. It's all about the journey not the destination and all that. Others might say that it's good to "force" sometimes because it's the only way to grow your self-determination. And even others still might say it's always good to "force" because the human mind is weak and will always perceive personal growth as unnecessarily effortful.
However, even if I had a desire to always push myself, I know I am human. I do not have unlimited willpower and I am unable "force" myself to do all scenarios I'm able to conceive. How to know if I've reached that point and am being honest with myself, or if I'm allowing myself to believe I've reached my limit simply as a means of tolerating my behavior?
Ultimately, I want my simulation to visualize this psychological dance.
I have an ego which I'm compelled to expend energy to maintain. Adding to my identity is hard work, but feels great when accomplished - for a while. The feeling wanes as time elapses and my ego craves more growth, but there is upkeep required to maintain it. The cost of this upkeep is reduced with habituation which can allow me to continue growing. Failure to establish habituation results in overexertion of willpower and, even with habituation, unanticipated life-events occur which temporarily ask more of my willpower. In an effort to appease my ego I commit to pushing myself to hold my routine. If the negative event lingers for too long, and I fail to reduce my effort through habituation, then, over time, the act of constantly pushing results in worsening mental health which saps my energy and forces my hand. In desperation, I drop parts of my identity which I feel I cannot sustain. This is a deeply sad event and invites depression as I compare who I am to who I was and/or aspire to be. Ultimately, it's up to me to accept my new self before a downward spiral of negativity occurs. Sometimes this occurs quickly and other times the spiral can become self-destructive. Nevertheless, at some point in the future, I feel I have sufficient willpower to maintain the identity I've committed to, my desire for self-improvement grows, and I rally. I attempt to break the negative cycle with a new accomplishment and, when I succeed, I get a burst of happiness and motivation which causes the cycle to flip back towards growth. Thus, the cycle begins anew.
Any of this ring true to you? Tell me about your experiences here! How do you visualize this journey?
Modern_Devil t1_j6ukj9m wrote
You should probably ask a doctor. This is too intense for me personally. My feeling is that we are going to need a lot of therapists for our AI when they become sentient. If you can over analyze yourself this bad, the AI don’t have a chance in our world.