My initial thoughts/self talk are always negative. It takes a lot of practice to ignore those thoughts but it is crucial for our happiness to try and turn them into positive thoughts.

Your brain is a muscle and right now it's impusles are to be negative. So it will take time to rebuild that muscle to think positively. You are retraining yourself. It takes time and a lot of effort, but you can do it.

Keep working on yourself every day. You are worth it. The results are worth it. You got this!