I feel this, so Fucking much. Wasted 6 years of my life on a man who would constantly belittle me, emotionally abused me, cheated, lied, manipulated, all of the terrible things people do. No matter what I did, I was a useless piece of crap. I dropped out of nursing school, went through multiple jobs, lost touch with friends and family - all to put him first and make sure HIS needs were met while he couldn’t even give me affection or attention on a regular basis. It got to the point where I literally wanted to die rather than live without him, because I couldn’t bring myself to leave. I couldn’t sever the ties no matter how bad he treated me. Sadly, I had a gun in my mouth more than once. I thank god and whatever powers that are above that I didn’t do it, because my life is SO much better 4 months post breakup. For anyone who is going through the same shit, please just know it gets better. It’s never worth putting yourself last for someone else.