Yeah, i guess that makes sense. And it can certainly be really cathartic to indulge in little things i used to enjoy as a kid, like McDonald's happy meals. But I feel like the closer a memory gets to present so i remember it vividly, but there's also still a big disconnect just gives me this uncanny valley feeling that makes me wanna throw up. Like, I can't quite remember anything specific about McDonald's happy meals, so i just take whatever i presently feel trying it and try to associate with childhood, but because with clearer memories there's already a connection and you know in unconsciously detailed accuracy how it's supposed to feel and then it doesn't.. idk, it's just really unnerving. I guess it's like.when a book starts and ends with the same line, but with a completely different context.