Absolutely. As far as I'm aware, purgatory in the literal sense anyway is at least of a religious spiritual nature. A "hellish" place. Or a place depicted as having no hope. A place of suffering. I think everyone has their own darkness or demons they face. Ironically enough its easier for us to hate ourselves and drag ourselves down than it is to honestly give ourselves words of encouragement. For most anyway.

We are our own worst critics but why is that? We have a natural need/fight to survive. We tend to fear death. Fear pain. Fear losing everything we love and care about. Our drive for self preservation is strong so why does it seem so easy to beat ourselves down to the point of causing ourselves unbearable pain? Physically we feel an instinctual need to look out for ourselves or our loved ones but yet we can kill ourselves Psychologically by the internal battles to the degree for some of even ending their own life because they want the pain to stop. It may start with outside forces but it turns into a waterfall that continues even after they stop.

Being our own worst critics, we're also the ones that hold ourselves back a lot of times or grant others the power to hold us back. I'm sorry you're struggling OP. I hope you find clarity and are set free. That you may see the truth whatever it may be so you may thrive to be the best you can be.

Also as a note: I spoke of God being able to grant you sight of things through dreams. A family member of mine saved my uncle, aunt and cousins lives because of the dream she had. Otherwise they'd have died in a car accident. And in a dream, when my brother was struggling from addiction and no one knew what life held for him in a downward spiral, in her dream, God told her not to worry. That he was gonna go into ministry. Man did he fight that hard-core but what happened? One of the several things that happened with him is he went to church for whatever reason while he was high as a kite. A point in time came and it was like someone flipped a switch. He went from high to sober in less than a second. And anyone who knows anything about drugs and/or has done them can tell you that NOTHING can make someone go from high to sober in the flip of a switch. But he did. He got clean and graduated with a major in ministry.

Edit: for anyone interested, the family member's dream was three vehicles were driving. Something happened causing the middle vehicle to swerve off the road down an embankment. Killing everyone inside said vehicle. She made everyone promise to be careful driving. We were driving for a family vacation. Low and behold my parents were in front pulling their camper. My aunt, uncle and cousins were second and grandparents following behind. I think my uncle may have been pulling a tag along. Anyway, a camper, my parents, that was 1 year old. The wall of the side of the camper blew off while we were driving down a long winding road. Thankfully because of the warning, everyone was driving more carefully. Otherwise it would've either a) taken out the second vehicle or b) caused them to swerve off the road and could've killed my aunt, uncle and both cousins. I'm not sure how exactly it went but when it was blown off, it came down (I think behind my aunt and uncle's vehicle) and my grandparents ran overtop of it. I was little. I've heard the story from all three parties the same.